reader of the journal rescued this testimony of Annie Johnson Flint
old newspaper or Christian circular:
Many Crosses To Bear
The Testimony of
6:14 But God forbid that I should glory,
save in the cross of our Lord Jesus
by whom the world is crucified unto me,
and I unto the world.
#1: The Cross of Joy
is bright, filled with pleasure, friends that love. These times are those when
I had not a care. But I had to give up the “Joy Cross” so that I could come close
to my Savior. The next cross He wanted me to bear was the Cross of Sorrow.
friends, no pleasure, the soul is exceedingly sorrowful, a path that is rough,
looking back at the past, regretting. I know that I am to forget the things that
are behind, for they are washed clean by the blood of the Lamb and I am free.
Then there appeared the “Cross of Works”.
saw many sick, so many discouraged, so many that had fallen by the way. So I went
to work. I wanted to help everyone in their sorrow, grief and pain. My heart was
light, my feet, strong to carry me. No longer did I look behind, nor mourn for
joys of the past, there were no more regrets. There was a song in my heart and
a song upon my lips. Dark was the road, feeling its roughness, my soul was anxious
within me, for I could not comfort, nor feed every soul, hungers I could not satisfy,
burdens too heavy to lift. I could only cry and hold my outstretched hands to
Him saying, “O, my Father, help these, for I cannot. O, my Father, help me!” He
said to me, “Do not be weary in well doing, for you are coming toward Me, drawing
nearer to My Heart.” Then, He pointed to the “Cross of Sacrifice”!
#4 The Cross of Sacrifice
sacrifice what? He would not take anything from me. My own free will. I must give
myself. All that I am. Can I give it up? Can I choose His will over mine? There
are things I can do without, but can I do without Him. Giving myself to Him so
completely is His dearest wish. Do I want His dearest wish to come true? The good
fight of faith was won and I said, “My Father, I give you all.” He accepted my
sacrifice and brought me nearer to Him to be more like Him. What now, Lord?
#5 The Cross of Suffering
spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak, but let Him do what He wills, for I
am His. Then I saw one whose face was lined, furrowed with deep strokes, but I
also saw peace that comes from deep tribulation, one who had forgotten how to
weep. He held one hand out to me, the other He pointed to the ground. There lay
a cross, which I had seen in His hand upon the mount. The Voice said, “This is
the only way that you can approach Me, to be near me and to be most like Me. This
is your cross. Lie down upon it, no shrinking, no fear. You are not alone, I too
have been there.
experienced all the depths of pain and at the last, I was forsaken by the Father,
but you will not suffer that last worst suffering. You will never know it, for
I will never leave you, nor forsake you." I laid down on the cross, and I
am rested upon it every day. “The Angel of Suffering” is upon my left hand and
upon my right hand, one who comes with Him, “The Angel of his Presence”; and then
there was another, “The Angel of Peace”. These three live always with me.
vision is Reality, no stern Judge, nor a merciful God, but my loving Father, who
bends over me. The way has brought me almost to His feet. Only a narrow valley
divides us, “The Valley of the Shadow”, and the angel who shall lead me through
it is the “Angel of Death”. Now I wait for his coming with a calm, peaceful heart,
not like those who dread his coming. I shall see Christ's Face, the Face of the
Son of God - the One who walked beside me in the furnace of affliction so that
I passed through without even the smell of smoke on my garments.
waters I go through leaning on the everlasting Arms. I hear a Voice that welcomes
me from the other side. It is His. Then I shall see Him at the Right Hand of God,
having upon His Head many crowns and on His vesture a name written, “King of Kings
and Lord of Lords” before whose face heaven and earth shall flee away.
nations stand before Him, out of great tribulation they come, enduring to the
end and they shall inherit all things. They shall cry with a loud voice saying,
“Blessings and honor and glory and power be unto Him that sitteth upon the throne
and unto the Lamb forever and ever." The One that sits on the throne, the
Man of Sorrows, I shall know. In His Hand, He holds a cross calling the sons of
men, “Come! Come! Who will take up his cross and follow Me, that he may be like
unto Me and that I may set him upon My Right hand and share with him things glorious
and beautiful beyond the dreams of earth and the imagining of men.”
9:23 And he said to them all, If any man will come after me,
him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me.
2:20 I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth
in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son
of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.