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On this page we will discuss the many "good things" which can come between you and Jesus Christ.



John 13:21 (KJV) When Jesus had thus said, he was troubled in spirit, and testified, and said, Verily, verily, I say unto you, that one of you shall betray me.
22 Then the disciples looked one on another, doubting of whom he spake.
23 Now there was leaning on Jesus' bosom one of his disciples, whom Jesus loved.
24 Simon Peter therefore beckoned to him, that he should ask who it should be of whom he spake.
25 He then lying on Jesus' breast saith unto him, Lord, who is it?
26 Jesus answered, He it is, to whom I shall give a sop, when I have dipped it. And when he had dipped the sop, he gave it to Judas Iscariot, the son of Simon.
27 And after the sop Satan entered into him. Then said Jesus unto him, That thou doest, do quickly.


Verse 21-- Jesus sets the scene for our lesson, and the lines of loyalty are set also. Judas may have begun to follow Jesus three years previously with sincere desire to be eternally devoted to Messiah. But, something has changed inside the man.

Verse 22-- No one suspected Judas was a traitor at heart. There are those amongst us who have followed close to Jesus for many years, they have manifest the power of God in serving others, and they have been entrusted by Christ, it would seem, with the gifts of ministry. We must not worry ourselves about this. Until it is openly known that someone is a traitor, we must accept all men who manifest the power of God, and let Christ decide when and how to reveal their wickedness.

Verse 23-- John speaks of himself in the third person. He was leaning on Jesus' bosom. The meal was important, the Passover was important, the law must be fulfilled in the annual meal, and it is all right to be hungry and partake of what God provides. But, the center of John's attention was on Jesus himself.

Close, so very close to God,
Closer I could not be;
For in the Person of his Son,
I'm just as close as He.

Verse 24-- Good old Peter. He is our curious brother, always wanting to get to the bottom of the matter. I don't think this was a Gestapo thing with Peter. Peter knew he was a wicked man and had asked Jesus to depart from him long ago. It may well be that Peter was in terror of his own frail humanity. It also may be that Peter wanted to "church" or excommunicate the rascal, whoever he was.

Verse 25-- It seems that John had the nerve to ask what everyone wanted to know. Perhaps he too dreaded the thought that he might betray Jesus. Perhaps this moment explains why John went into the judgment hall later with Jesus and all the way to the cross. John represented the alternative to the choice about to be made by Judas.

Verse 26-- The sop. It was good for food. It was given to Judas by Jesus. It was unleavened, Kosher, and part of the sacred meal of Israel. There was nothing evil about the sop. But, we see the choice here of two men, John and Judas. John had enjoyed the food, but his preference now was to be as close as possible to Jesus. Judas was still ready to satisfy his appetite, and he was eager to take, both silver, and food. Judas had forgotten the words of Job.

Job 23:12 (KJV) Neither have I gone back from the commandment of his lips;
I have esteemed the words of his mouth more than my necessary food.

Verse 27-- The lessons here are multiple.

John got close to Jesus. He got close enough to have a personal communication with God and receive an answer. Judas was only close enough to satisfy his hunger.

Leaning on Jesus-- close to the Shepherd-- waiting for the Word, OR close to the sop, waiting for the hand of plenty, ready to leave once the stomach was full.

Eyes on Jesus-- talking to Jesus-- listening to Peter-- wanting to know, OR watching the last choice sop-- wishing for more kids on the church bus-- yearning for a bigger offering-- not listening-- not asking-- not even hearing the question of the saints around you.

Song of Solomon 8:5 (KJV) Who is this that cometh up from the wilderness, leaning upon her beloved? I raised thee up under the apple tree: there thy mother brought thee forth: there she brought thee forth that bare thee.




Prophecy, when based in the Word of God, is good for the soul. It helps the saint keep a forward look, it gives assurance to see prophecy fulfilled, but it does not convict of sin nearly as well as leaning on Jesus. That is why many allegedly Fundamental churches love prophecy conferences.

Let me show you how your sop of prophecy could fail you. All Fundamental prophecy teachers and books exalt the Lord for bringing Israel back into the land. But, what if 1948 is not the true fulfillment of prophecy about the return of Israel and it becoming a nation? My Dad always cautioned us not to make the present state of Israel the absolute fulfillment of the return. It sure looks like it, but tell me, what if the Arabs drove the Jews out of Israel next week, and what if they had to flee again to Europe or the USA? Would you lose your assurance of salvation.

You see, prophecy is a good sop, right from the hand of Jesus, but it is not the foundation of your assurance. Jesus Christ in person is supposed to be sufficient for you to lean on until you die or he comes back for you. The Holy Ghost is our "Earnest," not Israel.


Repentance is becoming a fetish to Fundamentalists. The fact that you repented long ago "at an old fashioned altar" is not enough to make it through to heaven. If you do not believe "and are sure" that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of the Living God, you are damned to hell, and your repentance be damned with you. Hindus repent, pagans repent, Catholics repent, and they are hell bound. It is JESUS in person who is the object of your salvation and assurance. Are you clinging to the sop of repentance. It is a good sop, it is part of being converted, and it comes to you from Jesus, but it is Jesus who saved you, not your repentance.


Some men bury themselves in study of the Word of God. This is a sop with promise, for we are told that if we study the Word, we will become "throughly furnished unto all good works." Now, you should enjoy that sop, but have you become a servant of study, of scholarship. Do you see a sermon every time you read the Word? Or, do you sometimes read, think, meditate, and lean on Jesus, for he IS the Word. When you die, trust me, anyone who counts to God and you now will not rustle up all your sermon notes and pour over them. There is nothing more moldy and stale as another man's sermon notes. So, how about setting down the sop once in a while and just lean on Jesus?


You are a member in the Body of Christ, if you have confessed your faith in Jesus Christ before man, and he has entered your name in the Lamb's Book of Life. Where else do you suppose you need to be a member? The local church is no better off for its membership list, in fact, there is possibly no greater offense to Christian fellowship than lists.

Are you a member of a preacher's club? What did that get you. This is a sop from Satan, not Jesus Christ, but it needs treatment here. If someone will not take you as you are, after confessing Jesus Christ to them, they are sucking on a Satanic sop. Do not let this happen to you. There is not ONE verse of Scripture to justify making lists of anyone in Christ's Church.


Men should see your good works and glorify you Father which is in heaven, right? Certainly! Jesus also said you would do greater things than he had done. Does that not justify being totally immersed in good works. NO! Thousands of saints are totally distracted from leaning on Jesus, they are exhausted, and they are dry as the top rail of the fence all the time. They have quit leaning on Jesus and are totally preoccupied with the sop of works. Get back to the Savior of your works, and you will be amazed at how much you get done for him with half the effort.

Creeds and Books--

Here is a sop that is mocked by Fundamentalists universally. The Reformed churches all have creeds, and much debate, study, and throbbing of effulgent brains, in halls of academic glory, goes into the fine tuning of creeds. Now, I want to be fair here. History tells us a story that Fundamentalists ignore as they stand on the shoulders of the Reformers and mock.

When Martin Luther nailed his thesis to the chapel door, there was not a Bible in town for the neophyte followers of Christ to read. There were street plays, which had totally warped the Truth, and there were minstrels, who botched every thing they sang about from the Bible. Brother Gutenberg had just invented the printing press, and when Bibles were finally printed they were chained to the pulpit so they would not be stolen.

So, Luther, Zwingli, Calvin, and the other Reformers all sat down and composed creeds. These were short enough to memorize and repeat in church worship times, and eventually, the converts of the Reformation could tell you what they believed. Old Mother Whore from Rome had no such creed. The Pope and priests gave their people noting final, only terror and threats and works.

But, along came Tyndale who said he wanted every plowman to have a Bible. Soon, Bibles were being printed in enough quantities that a man of means could afford one and hold a Bible study in his home. Many years later, Bibles were everywhere, and today, no Reformed Christian has an excuse for letting the sop of a creed define his faith. If you have a Bible, use it to lean on Jesus, and if you do not have a Bible, go to Wal-Mart and buy one for $5. Stop chanting and burping up stale sop every Sunday morning.

Battle, as in defending the King James Bible--

There is warfare in the Christian life, it comes directly from Jesus Christ, is commanded, and is rewarded. We lay heavy emphasis on spiritual warfare at this journal. But, it is possible to get to the point where battle is all you want. Kicking the Pope is all the spiritual exercise you care for. Christian warfare is a sop from Jesus Christ, and it is good for the soul. But, you can so easily become such a warrior that you no longer stop and lean on Jesus.

King David walked on the walls of Jerusalem at night. He prevented the night watch, that is, he stayed up late. Why? Well, David was a warrior. He wanted to see if the night guards on duty were awake and alert. He wanted to see if the walls were in good repair. But, King David, while up there on the wall, would also stop, look up, and say:

Psalms 19:1 (KJV) The heavens declare the glory of God; and the firmament sheweth his handywork.
2 Day unto day uttereth speech, and night unto night sheweth knowledge.
3 There is no speech nor language, where their voice is not heard.
4 Their line is gone out through all the earth, and their words to the end of the world. In them hath he set a tabernacle for the sun,
5 Which is as a bridegroom coming out of his chamber, and rejoiceth as a strong man to run a race.
6 His going forth is from the end of the heaven, and his circuit unto the ends of it: and there is nothing hid from the heat thereof.

Do you take your eyes off of the battle regularly and lean on Jesus?

When the Prussian army went to battle, they marched to their heartbeat. They marched silently, they marched fiercely, and as they marched, off to the right front or left was the king, The Bismarck, on his horse-- same pace, same zeal. When the order was given, "oblique right," The Bismarck on horseback did an oblique right in perfect step with the marching soldiers. When the "ready" order was given, The Bismarck raised his musket with the rest of the soldiers, and when the order "fire" was given, the Bismarck fired with his army. Later, back at the camp, when the soldiers celebrated their victory in the field, the roar of the soldiers merry toasts was only outdone by the mighty roars of The Bismarck. The Prussian soldiers loved war, but they loved The Bismarck more than they loved war. Hmmmmmmmmmmm

Church Growth, Emerging Church, and Contemplative Prayer--

So, you had Rick Warren around to show you how to grow a local church? Or, did you have some Fundamental Baptist famous Amos like Lee Roberson or some Hyles clone come around and fire up your church to mighty deeds of "bring them in"?

Tell me, preacher, when is the last time you called a man in to do a series of meetings to help saints lean on Jesus. I don't mean one of your mongrel Charles Finney "Revival Meetings." I mean a quiet, contemplative, tender time with the Good Shepherd, just wandering around the green pastures and by the still waters with the Lord. I am totally grossed out by the hype and hurrahs of you boys who think the saints are worthless unless they are in a frenzy of activity. Face it, you do not really want the saints to lean on Jesus. If you did, you would preach on Jesus Christ and his life AND the Gospel more, and the Epistles and the typology of the tabernacle and the knops of the temple less.

Go figure. Who leans on Jesus at your church house-- do YOU lean on Jesus in your pulpit?

And as for Rich Warren and Purpose Driven Cheese, and the Emerging Church (where has it been for 2000 years), and Contemplative Prayer, these are gold plated dandy counterfeits for, "Draw me nearer, nearer blessed Lord...." Get that high tension sop out of your mouth and ask Jesus, "Lord, is it I?"

Manifestations of Power and Miracles--

Charismatic Christians have bought into the notion that the power of God has to fall in some spectacular way every Sunday at the front of the church. A church near us had a sign on the front that said, "Miracles every service." They closed up for good several weeks ago. They were craving the sop. This is a sop from Jesus Christ again, at least sometimes. It is good for food, and it can be a blessing. But, millions of Christians around the world will NOT set the sop down and get over yonder on the other side of the table and just lean on Jesus. He might just sit there and hug them, and then the gold dust might not fall from the clouds, and they might have to shut up and stop chattering in alleged tongues and, heaven forbid, LISTEN!

Oh, you self-righteous Baptists, you do the same thing with you hyper services that have not one vestige of worship, no quietness, and not time to lean on Jesus. You joke and carry on like Jesus went on vacation, and you need to keep the mob amused at all costs. Put that ego driven sop down, and lean on Jesus next Sunday morning.

Rights, Patriotism, and Home Schooling--

Is it good to provide for your own, like maybe your kids' education? Is it good to do good works in the community, like help some local God fearing man get elected? Is this a sop from Jesus? Well, I gather it could be, for we are to be salt for sure. But, some of you are so obsessed with saving America, or the UK, or Canada, or some other nation, that you do not have time to lean on Jesus. You have come to be so consumed with the terror of a naughty lady like Hillary Clinton getting into office that Jesus Christ has been voted out of the Lordship of your life by default. You just do not have time to lean on Jesus until the battle is over, AND it never is over, right?

You are wicked. Hillary Clinton is destroying your fellowship with Jesus Christ. Fighting for the rights of home schoolers has been used of Satan to make your spiritual IQ about Jesus Christ well below 60. Put that sop down, that worthy sop, that rewarding sop, and go give the giver of the sop a big hug once in a while, AND hang around-- you will learn something about the battle.


Luke 14:33 (KJV) So likewise, whosoever he be of you that
forsaketh not all that he hath, he cannot be my disciple.

Is it time you left your preoccupation with the sop and leaned on the Savior of the sop?

Romans 14:8 (KJV) For whether we live, we live unto the Lord;
and whether we die, we die unto the Lord: whether we live therefore, or die,
we are the Lord's.


Will it be said of you and Jesus.....

"John 11:36 (KJV) Then said the Jews, Behold how he loved him!"


"He sure was a great Bible scholar."

"He built the biggest Sunday School in the South."

"He was the greatest prophecy teacher I ever heard."

"I never knew a preacher with a bigger library than his."

"He sure gave the devil a hard time in his city."

"He sure could eat fried chicken."

"My, my, how he loved that sop."


Here is a good sop of a Christian Bible teacher. I don't like the company the man keeps sometimes, but his teaching on prophetic things is biblical, and he uses the King James Bible. ZOLA LEVITT
Thousands of Christians are now reading Zola Levitt more than they are reading their Bible. Satan can enter such Christians quite easily. Read the comments of the man who followed Zola Levitt. This man has made a sop of Zola. This is not to say the Zola was evil, indeed, God may have considered Zola a useful servant, but this man is leaning on Zola far too much.


Bob Gray.

Trinity Baptist Church

Here is how a sop can fail you.


There were three rows of victims in the courtroom yesterday when Dr. Bob Gray, former pastor of 38 years of Trinity Baptist Church in Jacksonville, Florida was arraigned on three counts of sexual battery. The reports and testimonies of the child victims of this individual are coming out. One lesson in all of this is the danger of trusting anyone with your children, especially in places where you would normally assume safety. Lesson #2 is that those who remain silent about abuse only ensure that there will be more victims. I have a word of advice for those like this woman who as an adult confronted the pastor, along with her husband, about his molestation of her. When the church refuses to listen, the next stop after the police department is the local paper. Sunlight is a great disinfectant. If a congregation is so twisted and sinful that it wants to protect a predator, than take it to the civil authorities, many of whom have a greater sense of decency than many church leaders. After that, hit the the newspaper so that citizens are duly warned of the threat. What a tragedy and an outrage that this is the way the so-called church of Jesus Christ conducts itself. PS It was reported that Dr. Gray was preaching in jail. I'm sure that the sermon from a child molester really impressed his cellmates.

Notice how the Sword of the Lord, John R. Rice, and Lee Roberson ran to the same excess of riot in company with the child molester.

The other Bob Gray in Texas is a Poster Child at Hyles Anderson College, the school founded by a long time whore monger, Jack Hyles. Will you keep using men as sops instead of leaning on Jesus?

Baptist preachers all over America are signing a petition for the release of two preachers who beat a Hispanic boy until his kidneys stopped and he nearly died. Many around the USA have taken up the sop of Hank Thompson, and having stopped leaning on Jesus, they now must seek the rescue and vindication of their idols.

Taking the men God gives his Church, and leaning on them, that is, clinging to the sop of "the man of God," will open the door to devils who will virtually rule your mind and soul and cause you to defend all manner of filthy dogs.


Dr. Peter S. Ruckman
This man was "Uncle Pete" to thousands of youth long ago in churches and at Christians camps. He was a genuine blessing, and God clearly used him to fire up the zeal of young people. He also trained men to be street preachers and even tempered pastors, and missionaries who have been trained at his Bible Institute have proven to be hard working and worth supporting.

But, those who made a sop of Dr. Ruckman, who leaned on him instead of Jesus Christ, had a big let down long ago. Dr. Ruckman was divorced by his wife, and it appeared that the evil of the divorce can be laid at the feet of the women involved. But, Dr. Ruckman went to camp and told the kids and pastors, those who had made a sop of him, that he intended to never remarry. One lady told me that she admired "Uncle Pete" for doing the right and biblical thing. The next summer, though, "Uncle Peter" came to camp with a knock out of a woman on his arm, and later he married her. This lady who told us the story, though living in victory today, nearly denied the faith. Her sop had failed her.

Like Jehu, Dr. Ruckman has been used of God, and many people benefit even now from his defense of the King James Bible. But, he is NO substitute for leaning on Jesus, and any idiot who will give Dr. Ruckman carte blanche for all his past decisions and actions is possessed of a devil.

Here is one man in awe of Ruckman, a testimonial for Amazon:

Peter Ruckman is one of the most misunderstood preachers in all of Christianity. He is, by his own definition, "God's Junk Yard Dog" appointed to preserve the Authorized Version of the King James Bible. In truth, he is a saved sinner, forgiven and rejuvenated by the blood of Christ. But, his experiences as a sinner are formidable! He is, therefore, not quick to judge anyone for what they have done. He does not tolerate Christian wimps or hypocrites. He scoffs at human scholarship and places no credibility whatsoever in organized churches such as Catholicism or major Protestant denominations. As Christians go, Peter Ruckman is the real deal. He tells it like it is with all the faults and blemishes that life dishes out. That's why Christian scholars, celebrities and other modern apostates hate him so much. You will love him! He gives you the truth!

The man above totally ignores Ruckman's dark comments about Black Americans and Ruckman's ongoing divorce and remarriage quagmire which Ruckman will not deal with.

Is Dr. Ruckman a sop in your hand also?


Matthew 11:28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden,
and I will give you rest.
29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in
heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

Philippians 3:7 (KJV) But what things were gain to me, those I counted
loss for Christ.
8 Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the
knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss
of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ,
9 And be found in him, not having mine own righteousness, which is of
the law, but that which is through the faith of Christ, the righteousness
which is of God by faith:
10 That I may know him, and the power of his resurrection, and the
fellowship of his sufferings, being made conformable unto his death;
11 If by any means I might attain unto the resurrection of the dead.




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